Friday, May 20, 2005
parting shot
i'll be a good girl.
you want me to study hard? okay.. i will try my very best to sit down and study.
and since you dont want me to go ice skating, i wont.
you want me to listen to you, okay, listen i shall.
and you dont want me to be wasting my money all the time, so i'll start saving, okay?
i'll eat everything on my plate. those funny foods too.
i will put the dirty clothing in the basket. not forgetting my socks.
and i will go for all the remedials my teachers schedule
next time you wont have to scream and threaten me just to get me off the computer seat, i'll stand up and go before you can ask
i wont go to church, since youre worried i make the wrong choice
anyway its okay, that you dont have to worry, coz i have lost every ounce of faith i had in the catholic church
i must get the prize for you
i'll go home straight after school, bathe immediately and study.
and i'll sleep early so i can wake up in time for school
if you want, i'll follow you folks to the market on sundays too.
and i wont ever argue with you anymore, its gonna be my fault anyway
got to be
also, my cellphone bill isnt cheap at all, so its okay, go ahead, cancel it. like what uve said, im only a student and i dont need a cell. true. anyway i gonna stay at home and study, i wouldnt wanna think of going out unless ure bringing me out
i wont go and get myself involved in any relationship, coz you know it will throw me off track and at this age, no relationship will last.
i will treat my grandma better. even though you know she dont deserve good treatment you still respect her, and you want me to do the same, so i will try and be nice to her
you want me to graduate with good results and be able to take care of myself.. coz you know you wont be able to... okay i make sure i will, so i can ease your burden as much as possible
i would never want to hurt either of you, and i want to take care of you peeps. what youve done for me, its un-repayable, i know, but i wanna make sure you get back as much as youve given
thats what i believe in . the 3 fold promise.
when everythings settled... then i can go and treat myself. go on a nice vacation, whatever.
its late, ive school later. so lets consider this promise to take effect later on, when i wake up for school. but i got to apologize, with this little amount of sleep i doubt i can do much studying or anything
i just pray and hope i dont hyperventilate in school, or else it would be so much trouble for my dad to take early leave and fetch me home again.
its the last day im being this joce-lyn everyone knows. im gonna start being a good gurl. and im delibrately losing contact with almost everyone. but just dont bother, okay?
i have something very important to accomplish. that is to make sure my parents can live nicely and finely. as far as i can in my capacity as a stupid 16 year old.
nothing else matters. not even anthony, ice skating or pride.
xoxo
eshtrella
3:28 AM
